Art and Illness Symposium: What does illness feel like?

January 16, 2013 § 6 Comments

Art&Illness-Diagram-©OrlaghOBrien2013

For the vast majority of us, illness is where life and death meet. It’s a guarantee that even if we ourselves don’t get seriously sick soon one of our loved ones will. Knowing a little of what to expect and trying to imagine that will prepare us and help us be more compassionate if our mother, say, screams random obscenities at us. Or we ourselves might find strength knowing that this indescribable agony is shared with countless others. I know it did for me. I hope this post may be of some value to even one person who may feel confused or misunderstood right now. The speakers gave so much of their time to the symposium (more here) that I hope to do a little justice to them here.

Illness vs Disease

At the Saturday session, David Alpers gave a hugely extensive overview of the culture and art expressions of illness. The crucial point of his talk was that the experience of the patient must be valued as real, and listened to. He quoted Kleinmann’s definition of illness as the “innately human experiences of symptoms and suffering”. Disease is the medical description, found in text books and without reference to the specific individual. Illness relates to the sick person, how they suffer, the perceptions and reactions of people around them and the view of their culture to that condition…The above diagram takes a cue from Aoife Lowney’s Total Pain. Illness is far more than a collection of symptoms.

B+W_master2-IMAGINE2

The difficulty of imagining illness in the minds of the healthy

Fergus Shanahan, key organiser and Professor of Medicine at UCC in his opening speech described the difficulty that healthy people have in understanding the what it’s like to be ill. That, he says, is the reason why we need art. Alpers quoted William Styron on depression: ‘… incomprehension has usually been due not to a failure of sympathy, but to the basic inability of healthy people to imagine a form of torment so alien to everyday experience’.

B+W_master2-WORLD

From having a life to being a body in pain

‘Pain’ is far more than unpleasant visceral sensations. One’s existence and identity becomes dominated by the body. The poet John F. Deane who spoke on the Friday evening is a widow and father of lupus sufferers
. A line of one of his poems struck me: “…reduce your creatures to a quivering meat”
. Aine Lawlor, opening speaker and Morning Ireland broadcaster, remembered her times with breast cancer. She
 told how she went from being ‘empowered’ to ‘being a body
’. Later she said that just as the best politicians are those who know what failure is like, the best doctors are those who know what pain feels like.

Art&Illness-BOMB-©OrlaghOBrien2013

The terror of illness: a state of uncertainty and unpredictability

The trajectory of an illness is devastating in it’s refusal to be project managed. There is pain, and then there is the terror of not-knowing what will happen next. At the roundtable discussion, it was mentioned by one of the consultants that despite knowing more about disease there is a sense of futility.

Art&Illness-SNAIL-©OrlaghOBrien2013

Time in slow-motion and being in isolation

The velocity of the ill, 
however, is like that of the snail.
Emily Dickinson

Time slows to an unbearable pace. Elisabeth Tova Bailey when bed-bound over decades described how watching a wild snail gave her insights into the passage of time. Isolation is a word that came up repeatedly in the symposium. Tony Judt‘s description of a “prison without parole” really captured the sense of a body trapped and restrained, helpless and disempowered: “Helplessness is humiliating even in a passing crisis…”  A social aspect of isolation was described by Peter Whorwell, a specialist in Irritable Bowel Syndrome. Patients coming to his Wednesday clinics are totally embarrassed and humiliated by the symptoms of their condition. Kay Jamieson touched on the social stigma that surrounds mental health problems.

It is hopelessness even more than pain that crushes the soul.
William Styron

Art&Illness-LOSS-©OrlaghOBrien2013

Unbearable Loss

Loss is loss, and nothing is gained by calling it by a nicer name
Tony Judt

It doesn’t take much to imagine how devastating the loss of independence or degraded physical functions are, nevermind the uncertainty around them. Kay Jamieson spoke of the fear of losing the trust of her professional colleagues or clients when disclosing her bi-polar. Those with untreated psychiatric conditions risk losing the trust and friendship of those around them. The depressed lose self-esteem to a crippling extent. Listening to the illness narratives, I realised that loss of hope in a future is a major loss. How can we gather the strength to keep living without that?

Spiritual distress: Re-evaluation of one’s former life and identity

Aoife Lowney spoke of her experience working in a hospice with a young man who had a brain tumour. She listed the
 spiritual distress features as
 anger, resentment, depression, apathy, guilt, confusion, anxiety and powerlessness and explained that for those with terminal diseases there is no “future” as we normally take for granted. The totality of a personal narrative is now in the past. Facing the reality of death, the patient may want to leave something of themselves behind. There is often a re-evaluation of time and of the future. Aine Lawlor mentioned that as she is in permanent remission, time for her is measured differently: “How many Christmasses do I have?” It takes on a new quality and is more precious. Iarla O’Lionard performed on Friday and described how music’s “fabric is time… to listen to music is to understand time… ” Music helps our “capacity to deal with change” – I guess illness is the most forceful kind of change.

Summary

The main characteristics of illness experience I found from the symposium were:

  • Pain
  • Reduction of self to a body
  • Uncertainty and unpredictability
  • Changed perceptions of time
  • Isolation
  • Loss
  • Spiritual distress
  • Re-evaluation of life

Sources at the symposium for this article

  1. David H. Alpers gave a wide and detailed overview of the culture, experience and expression of illness. Amoung many sources were three illness narratives in literature: William Styron’s Depression in Darkness Visible, Elizabeth Tova Bailey’s ME in The Sound of a Wild Snail Eatingand Tony Judt’s ALS in Night.
  2. Aine Lawlor, broadcaster of Morning Ireland gave the opening speech and gave the story of her breast cancer.
  3. Dr. Peter Whorwell related the experiences of those with Irritable Bowel Syndrome.
  4. Bi-polar was vividly portrayed by Kay Jamieson, professor of psychiatry at John Hopkin’s and in her book Touched by Fire.
  5. Aoife Lowney described the story of how a brain tumour patient coped by using web 2.0 to build narratives and leave a personal legacy.

Other sources of interest

  • Virginia Woolf’s 1930 essay On Being Ill
  • Susan Sontag’s Illness as a Metaphor
  • Lisa Appignanesi’s Mad, Bad And Sad:A History of Women and the Mind Doctors from 1800
  • Bronnie Ware’s Top 5 Regrets of the Dying

Please comment!
You are warmly welcome to add further characteristics I have missed, and any comments to clarify or questions are also invited.

Next post
How can illness be communicated in the arts and humanities?

 

Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

§ 6 Responses to Art and Illness Symposium: What does illness feel like?

  • Mental illness is illness of the mind or psyche or spirit, and although it affects the body too, it really isn’t a physical illness in terms of facing mortality etc. They say it is a chemical imbalance of the brain that causes mental illness but also, every mental illness is different to every person. To me, mental illness happens out of life’s circumstances. And although it is diagnosed in groups or categories i.e. Schizophrenia/bipolar etc., every person who suffers mental illness has different experiences. Every person and every case of mental illness is unique in my opinion.

    Like

  • Orlagh says:

    Thanks for your comment Mairead. I think that for me to have said illness is where one faces mortality is only true for some but clearly not all illnesses! For something like depression, there are huge mortality rates both in terms of suicide but also knock-on effects of addictions and lack of care, but it doesn’t necessarily mean one would ever die from it, even if that wish is there.

    Its a big and fascinating debate about causes of mental illness. I think this lecture on depression from Prof Robert Sapolsky in Stanford is interesting as he makes a comparison in one way between mood disorder and diabetes. It’s a full lecture but well worth watching. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NOAgplgTxfc

    In fact many people said this at the symposium said the same as you: each person’s experience of illness is totally different. One can collect symptoms of a disease, but it will be different for each patient. Do the categories in this blogpost come across as overly simplistic I wonder…?

    Like

  • liorsmith says:

    Sometimes it is necessary to be overly simplistic in order to start to understand something.

    I found this particularly interesting to read now, since a few days ago we lost an old friend to cancer. She had been diagnosed a week before. I am grateful that her experience of being ill (aside from previous unidentified pains) was limited to a week. Those characteristics you list –

    Pain
    Reduction of self to a body
    Uncertainty and unpredictability
    Changed perceptions of time
    Isolation
    Loss
    Spiritual distress
    Re-evaluation of life

    – she would only have had to deal with them during that week, in a very extreme way in her case.

    Maybe it ought to be mentioned that for all of the people around her, we also had to cope with uncertainty, a changed perception of time, spiritual distress and a re-evaluation of life, and now, loss.

    Thank you for posting this. It’s given me some words for the grief.

    Like

    • Orlagh says:

      Hi Lior,
      Your comment blew me away. First of all I’m so sorry to hear about your old friend and the sudden loss. Secondly I’m delighted that the intention of this blogpost has been so swiftly realised: it helped you in some way.
      Today Fergus Shanahan, Professor of Medicine at University College Cork gave a presentation in the Glucksman Gallery about art and science in relation to medicine. I told him at the end about how the symposium helped you. He was so grateful to get that kind of feedback.
      Deepest heart wishes,
      Orlagh

      Like

  • Herman says:

    Asking questions are in fact fastidious thing if you
    are not understanding something totally, but this post presents fastidious understanding even.

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

What’s this?

You are currently reading Art and Illness Symposium: What does illness feel like? at E}V Blog.

meta

Follow

Get every new post delivered to your Inbox.

Join 441 other followers